Sick Days and Cupcakes

Hey y'all :)

So I'll be off from work for another week because of my back, which I hurt again past weekend. Sucks royally. The pain, not the extra free time. In general I'm feeling good, but can't bend at all, and walking 300 feet takes about five minutes. I hope I'll be in good enough a condition next week, so I can return to work.

I hope to spend the following days doing something productive, like writing. Also, when I get back home (I'm taking advantage of my current state and crashing at my mom's) I'm planning on filming a video for you guys (again, since the first one turned out to be an epic fail).

Today, after visiting a doctor, I shopped for some goodies and later made some cupcakes!

They taste sooo good! I messed up the frosting in a couple of them, but all in all I'm happy I can make presentable looking cupcakes ;) kudos to me!

I hope y'all are having a good week so far, I'll get back to you soon!

<3

update

I am currently laying on my bed, resting my back, which still hasn't healed. It's a whole lot better, but I've still got some recovering to do. I'm back at work, but at home I try to take it easy. Sorry for not writing :/

Lately I've been consumed by a lot of other negative stuff, too. Nothing too serious, but sometimes I guess we just face trials that test our ability to stay positive. Positive thinking has been my way of surviving for a while now, but it's not always as easy as it sounds. But in the end, the good stuff outweighs the bad stuff :)

I guess you can tell I'm really in need of a vacation, huh? Two more months to go..!

This was just a quick update; I will write something worth reading later ;) Oh, and guess what the ef happened.. I filmed a video for you guys, and while I was editing it, it turned out that the voice isn't matching the video; they're not in sync and apparently there's nothing I can do to fix that.. so I'll just have to start all over again! And that I will do asap. Please, be patient with me :)

I'll talk to you later! xoxo

Today was my pay day

I've been complaining about my make-up for so long that I was beginning to annoy even myself, and was really due to buy some more. So today, I went shopping, and got what I needed + SOME MORE!

Sorry for the bad quality

Basically, all I really needed was the blush... But there was a sale! The eye shadow thingy only cost me 2 euros, and the two nail polishes together were 3 euros. Then again.. there's the liquid eyeliner, the brushes and the blush, that put the price up and I ended up spending a good 43 euros (including a bag of m&m's that I already murdered). I also bought a new eyelash curler, because my eyelashes are the stupidest eyelashes in the entire world; my right eye is fine, the lashes curl up nicely naturally, but my left eye is different, and the lashes are straight and DO NOT STAY CURLED. I wonder if I should get one of those curlers that heat up? If you have any experience with those, leave a comment below!

I've been so into YouTube lately, it's ridiculous. I'm frantically following all these cool channels and even though I said I would wait a little before starting my own channel, the temptation is huge. But, let's just get that first video out here until I make any rushed decisions. It'll probably be up in a couple of weeks..

I'm also tempted to go and have my hair lightened more... I've had waaaaayyyy too much time to myself. I'll return to work on Friday, maybe that'll bring me back to Earth.

See ya later ;)

Things that make me happy

1. My family
I've always been close to my family and we do a lot of things together, traveling in example. I like spending time with them, and sometimes pack up a bag and go to my mom's for a few days, simply because I want to.

2. My friends
Sometimes I get agitated when I think of how long it's been since I've seen a particular friend or friends, but then I remember our friendship is too strong for me to have to worry. I'm so blessed to have people in my life, with whom I can continue from exactly where we left off - whether it was a week or six months ago. We're there for each other and can trust each other with our secrets. Awwww! Mushy :)

3. My job
I'm not in my dream job, but we have a good crew. It's never annoying going to work, and I know what I'm doing + it pays the bills and allows me to get something extra every once in a while, let alone allows me to travel.

4. Traveling
I would hang myself if I had to stay put without a chance of going somewhere at least once a year. Preferably more often. I live to see other places and cultures, and have made awesome friends overseas. America has become my home away from home (maybe even more of an actual home than Finland), and every time I go there, it's like I can breathe again.

5. Writing
I love to create characters, new worlds, new stories... and write them down. This will hopefully turn into a full time career for me in the future.

6. Music
It's just pure magic.

7. My apartment
My sanctuary, where I can live how I want and control my life. My own little cave that's over flowing with stuff.

8. Social Media
Ok, sounds really vain and all, but I am happy there's a convenient way for me to keep in touch with people who live across the world from me. Social media also offers countless of ways for people to express themselves and make their dreams come true.

and...

9. My faith
... without which I would be nothing <3

Inspiration!!!

Hi guys!!

Ah, I've been on constant blogging- and vlogging -mode for the last couple of days! You are yet to see the fruits of my labor, but I promise, I've been so active lately, yay! I have a whole list of ideas for videos (and I'm already working on the first one) and I've also been glued to my laptop and have been watching and following various YouTube Channels.

I hurt my back on Wednesday and am now just hanging out at home alone, at least until Sunday, and hopefully I'm able to return to work on Monday. Back pain is a b**ch, and it just sucks when you can't even drive a car because sitting up hurts soooo much. I am hoping to be in better shape soon, but this forced bed rest has given me a lot of time to think about stuff, so yay for productivity even when I'm sick!

I was perscriped two types of medicine, and my friend who was driving me around the other day, said that maybe when I'm all high with my pain meds I will get some inspiration and write my book. Hahaha, he was right, inspiration did strike!

This whole thing has taken away my appetite completely. Maybe it's just that all of my energy goes to getting better, so I'm not really consumed by regular things, like eating... haha, so weird, I don't know. But today I ate three pieces of bread in the morning and wasn't even hungry when I forced myself to eat a little more at 10pm. I'm just really not in the mood to eat right now. Maybe I'll end up losing a couple of pounds during this ordeal... oh well, there's always hope ;)

I truly hope you guys are doing better health wise, and I wish you a happy weekend :) Stay tuned!

-iira

Sometimes I feel like the Universe is messing with me.

Sometimes most of the time life just baffles me. The unpredictability of it. You never know what's going to happen tomorrow, you never know where you'll be a year from now. I didn't expect to be the way I am at 24, I didn't expect to be here at 24, I didn't expect... I don't really know what I expected. Something more, something less... Oh yeah, I expected to have a freakin' clue. 

The truth is, I don't think anyone's got it all figured out. Being content is one thing, but when you think about it, how many people are there who are totally and completely happy with the way their lives have turned out? I'm not unhappy, but could be doing better. Knowing I'll be stuck here this way for at least another year is both relaxing and tormenting. But seriously.. I need a way out. Rather sooner than later :) Don't think of me as a depressing person.. think of me as an adventurer who's resources to see the world are very limited right now. 

Writing gives me a great escape, which is one of the main reasons I want to blog. And I want to blog more regularly, but I'm going to need your help with that. I was thinking of topics the other night and here's what I came out:

The reason there's a "HAHA!" after hairdos, is that I suck big time when it comes to doing my hair. I can use a flat iron and a curling iron, but that's about it. I just wrote that down because it popped into my mind, and didn't really think it through. But I actually have a really nice hair! 

This is where you come in. What do you want to read about? (Or hear about? 'Cause the video is happening! Maybe even videos, as in plural!)  :)